Yes, I know Rabit is spelt with two B's. And yes I know it seems a little obvious to all who know me, that I should know these things.. But it was a simple mistake, not meant to happen, and it still did! And it works even!!
Kinda like my life now. I never meant for the last year to happen. I never realized just how insane it was to think I could go back to my old childhood love and try to recapture the "oneness" that was us. Especially because almost 20 years had gone by. And even more so because I am married!! Happily married at the time of this crazy and dumb adventure down my own "Rabbit Hole".
It is one of those blink of an eye things that seems ok at the time. Seems like no harm can come from any of it. Any decsion made at that time seems trivial. Almost not a real decision. One that didn't take me much thought.
An Email.. Friend request to be specific.
I had known for years this would happen one day. Just like I know his nature and character... When the email came "Friend Request from ...." my heart both sank and soared at the same time. We had been high school sweethearts. My first in all things. First love, first real kiss, first heartache, and first lover. I was convinced we were going to be together forever. And he had no problems jumping into that picture with me. It gave him everything he wanted too. A girlfriend who did and acted for him. Who wore her heart on her sleeve, and was cute and full of life!
How little I realized that those choices back then would influance me now some 19 years later..
Fast forward to me now. A thrity something, 4 kids, and a bit lost. And then I got the email.
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